'I like you, just the way you are.'
But, it was close enough. Ok, it wasn't close at all, but I'll take it!
After asking me about my New Years plans, B proposed I come with him. In response to my disclaimer on the price of the tickets he said...
'As a bday/xmas gift, I can definitely cover the cost for us getting in (if you wanna make dinner some time, we'll call it square).'
Instead of Mr. Darcy, perhaps I should start calling him Big?
How easy for him to just write off the cost for two very expensive New Year's Eve tickets?! And, how lucky for me?! This is the most expensive gift I've ever received from a gentle-fellow, especially one whom I'm supposedly only 'casually' dating. The feminist inside is having trouble swallowing her ego. But, at least he's giving me an opportunity to kill him with a meal cooked by yours truly?!
And, just when 'Mr. I don't want a relationship' starts acting interested, guess who else does?
Yep, the ex.
Haven't we already done this?
This time I had to hear it, so I choked down my pride and asked why he was contacting me.
'Because he wants to know I am doing well and happy.'
Huh? Funny he didn't care about me when my life was up in flames? And, equally interesting that he mentioned talking to people about me, my work, and my whereabouts. I have not and may not ever reciprocate.
I was surprisingly numb to the entire experience and perhaps it is in part because of my current beau. But, if we are to take B out of the equation, perhaps it is more about my growth as a lover, artist and friend over the last 2 years. I love the reflection time at the end of the year, especially when it starts feeling like everything, in the end, may pay off.
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